You don't deserve my love

[WARNING: R18+, MATURE CONTENT ]
"You can't leave me like this," a broken piece of words left his mouth. Yinlan was confused by the scene that was unfolding in front of her.
She might be dying slowly, but is her desire so strong for her unwanted love, which she wished for her whole life, that she is experiencing something unbelievable?
She could hear his erratic heartbeat, which was frantic and agitated while he was cradling her in his arms. But she was confused by his unsteady behavior. She thought her death would bring him happiness, which he thought she had taken away from him. So why was he showing different behavior which was unknown to her?
What more does he want from her? Is torturing her whole life not enough?