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I wasn't at all faulting the way you wrote it. I just found it a little unsettling to come to terms with the realization that I might selfishly prefer the original real ending after all, for the sake of the story, rather than being sympathetic to Jenna's emotions. Like, am I a bad person for preferring a version where she's unhappy for a longer period? I haven't previously encountered a situation where the 'what ifs' were written out, so I hadn't ever thought it through. I guess I had assumed I'd want the ending to be what I thought I wanted while reading it, so I've just been having an existential episode the past few days.

I'm actually having philosophical difficulties from reading the "what if" versions, and have paused for a few days to come to terms with things. I know I should prefer the version where Shaw is convicted the first time, and everything works out. And while reading the main story, at every turning point I wanted things to work out right for everyone, but after reading a few alternate versions I've realized that I don't know which ending I want to have had happen, and I feel kind of guilty that I don't automatically jump to the one that makes everyone happy the soonest. Maybe part if it is that the story would have been shorter, and I never want good books to end, because then I have to find another one to read. Maybe it's because Jenna is younger when the other versions end, and her character and personality is less fully developed. But would she have ended up still doing things like the Friday night activities with Jonas, and had the same hobbies and intensity, or would she and Bryce have settled into a married family routine and ended up so much a part of each other that it was JennaandBryce, not Jenna and Bryce as fully independent individuals?...

You're an amazing writer. I've read everything of yours that I've found so far, and you're basically the only reason I use the app. I really appreciate how you write stories with more substance than just a surface level plot. Your stories are consistently interesting and solid as the story progresses, not like a mad rush for a dramatic climax that's somehow expected to redeem the unsatisfying read. Thank you for always being a worthwhile read (even though I sometimes end up staying up too late and having book hangovers in the morning).