||Eshan||
Not too many situations made me aphonic. However, the current situation not only made me speechless but also had me questioning my capability of speaking. The guilt of being the reason of her every misery, the guilt of failing her, the guilt of letting down Grandpa, and most importantly the guilt of not understanding how to resolve everything stole my voice. I could not vocalize what I was feeling.
What would one do being put in such a condition? Back in the room, I had thought it was yet another mirage of my mind. I had imagined Innaya for so many times in the past two months that I had long forgotten the difference between reality and illusion. I had apologized to her, just as I have been doing lately. Somewhere, I was aware that there was no point in lamenting about my misfortune for, I was the one to bring it upon myself.
This is the longer chapter. I could have split it in two, but I felt giving it in one chapter would be good.
I am so not sure about this chapter. I had written, rewritten and again rewritten this chapter multiple times yet I feel something is missing. Eshan's perspective is so complicated and hard to write. I am so not writing from his POV in this book.
What do you think about this chapter?
I want to know your thoughts on this chapter.
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