Zhenda

Indonesia, Yogyakarta
Zhenda, a sweet and shy girl whose suffering in her life is very strange. Born into a broken family, his parents separated and left him when he was 1.5 years old. Since then she has only relied on the body of Kakung or her Grandfather because the Grandmother has been gone forever. But only her Grandfather she was proud of, somehow the existence of her Grandmother during life did not make him feel the figure of her mother's successor. Her grandfather became his only right-hand man as well as her hope. It was his grandfather who made it through all the strange obstacles in the course of his life. Until finally the day became unsatisfied, she was not eager to continue writing his life story above expectations. On that day she was diagnosed by the doctor of the Tetralogy of Fallot and the injectant hope is gone, January 17, 2017 as if the world collapsed.
At the age of 20 Zhenda finally decided to live her new life alone as a teenager walking in search of the meaning of happiness. Happiness comes, Zhenda finds a Lunar that makes the end of his day meaningful again.

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Tok tok , sreggggggggggggggg
Can't wait to knock on his bedroom door, just push the door of his old room. I see kakung was lying weak.

"It hurts, Kung? I brought Kakung's favorite herbal medicine still in the kitchen I haven't brought Kung.." my eyes were a little hot holding water, while sitting on Kakung's soft bed. It hurts, my mind is no longer in my mind. As soon as negative thoughts crossed my mind, was it possible that soon my hope would also leave me?

My daydream was immediately snuffed out by him.

"No nduk, Kakung just a little gout so Kakung sleeps first for a while. Nduk kakung wants to say something, if you have to keep the spirit of living your life. Don't like to be gloomy in the room.” his dashing voice faded a little, I just nodded.

"You know that your mother left not because you don't love you, you will find your mother when you are ready. Your father too, he loves you, but your father already has a new family, may you be sincere. Later if Kakung leaves you do not get discouraged, you are strong. Kakung has also taken care of your financial affairs, don't worry about it."

I was just silent, it felt so tight that I couldn't accept everything that was going on in my life. For years I was being disbelied by my own fairy. And today I know the truth. A dark shadow again enveloped me.

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