How Deku became The villain

i was walking on my way to home, should i called it home? everyday, every minute, every seconds it feels like hell.

why can't i be like him?
why doesn't you look at me?
why is he the one always prioritize?
why can't you see me?
i am here too but why?
why do i have to live?
why can't i die?

i want to escape , i want to die , i want to end my suffering but why can't i just end my life..why??

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*this story is a fanfic about bnha

basically what happens in the bnha is just a story created by midoriya , in reality there is still quirks and Villains/Hero but he didn't met allmight, His not the positive deku that will never give up, His not the deku who is being love by his mother and Deku have a brother too and his Dad is alive