MotivatedSloth - Profile

Some day, I will. For now, I really don't have the time to write a novel that doesn't seem to be popular at all.

And who are you again?

Yeah, I can see how I could fit that part somewhat better, but I had no idea how to do it in any better way back when I wrote them. And yes, they are too important to the story to be ignored.

Oh my, obviously yeah, mistake on my part!

Also, unless you are a Ficcol reader, then I have no idea why your comment does not appear on the chapter. Will have to ask CE to do something about it.

There is one problematic thing about judging your own story - You can't do it unless you put it aside for a few weeks (few months at best) as to cut all the emotional and memory ties you have to it. It's even harder to do if you constantly write it. For example, my battlesmut novel (the one with longass title). It took me a while to realise how trash it was. I can now openly say that the first 150 chapters are beyond awful, while chapters 150-300 are below average. Only later the plot ideas and all allowed me to salvage the story and turn it into something I could be proud about. Then comes the worst part about anything I wrote so far (with only a few exceptions) Given how excited I get whenever I sit down to write something new... Most of the beginnings I write are just bad. Because they are written based on the idea, with the solid background work coming into play only once I calm down and actually think everything through. I would say that around chap 20 is the time when I kinda lost the purpose here (the initial drive) and had to transition to a proper writing - hence some problematic parts around that part. You could say, I was only ironing out what I actually wanted to write back then. Then comest the EGO part. I have a pretty fragile one, so before I can fully detach myself from my own writing, I'm rather... short-fused in terms of criticism. This was only reinforced in this novel when I had a reader who was so insanely dumb that he was clueless about things that I outright explained in a paragraph before he started ranting about it. (Imagine it like that - A paragraph explains who X character is, then in the literally next paragraph the reader makes his rant about not knowing who X is). This made it even harder to objectively assess the criticism, as whenever I saw a similar complaints (even if they made a fair point) it was instantly covered in the shitty aura of that idiot reader from before (who I outright asked to drop the novel and stop bothering me). In the end, you made valid points. Yet, given how I'm about 170 chapters further down the story, there is very little I can do to fix the problems you brought up. As much as I would love to do it, I apparently made exactly the same mistake as I did in my Phoenix novel - in order to make it more interesting, I artificially complicated it far more than I should. Take another point for the fact that its my last novel I will ever write in first person narrative and the anguish of doing so even though I already switched to third person in all my newer (? more recent? Younger?) novels. Overall, you made some valid points, you are not here just to trash the novel and pour your emotions on it. That's the sole reason why I have a fuck and actually replied both honestly and openly to it. With that in mind, I can only suggest you two options - either give up since the flaws you pointed out are likely to keep bothering you for the next few chapters, or try to toughen through it to reach the points where I'm more comfortable with the novel itself, allowing its plot and the ideas I have for it to shine. (not trying to force you here, just my rational approach to the situation). Whatever you choose, thanks for a proper feedback and I will do my best to keep that in mind when working on my future and current projects. In the end, writing is an neverending process of growth and learning, and I'm really thankful you could be a part of my growth :3

xD

Eh, some people just don't know when to stop. But sure, since you want the machine moving, so be it. I was mooted for using an uncensored word in the open. You were mooted for being a trash of a human being. The diff lies in fact, that once my moot is over, I will be back. And if you dare to go back, you will keep the stigma :3

The priv will remain and it will keep the most recent chapters. so once I have the energy to write more, they will start appearing