The amazing book sad story

Hello this is me
When a child is growing it has been difficult to accept new policies new rules. The same thing that happens with me when people call me that i am growing it was difficult but i accept. Therefore when i was in the school i had a best friend from starting but in class 6th we were seperated due to another girls that comes between us i couldn't accept that. But after some time i start to accept and leave them.due to covid 19 when school had closed for long ago i couldn't live without my friend and i also had not her number to contact her. I cried all day and night in all holidays. When it had declared that schools are going to opening i was very happy to meet her but that is not possible because she had already a friend .the way that i want to meet her i -didn't. After that day i accept that how is this world and how are the people. Same problem that hapoened with me in class 9th when my another friend called me selfish i really hurt by her behaviour and she stop talking to me i did the same and focusing on my study but i could not that the way i want to focus because of my friends i started sad poetry that comes and lives in my heart. I started believing on that sense that no friends are good for life for good life. After 9th the friend who called me selfish starts talking to me because of exams for cheating i accept her request because i had not any problem and the problem that i have that i trust anyone that is the really hurting.but i can not talk with her like good frndz i talk just like a classfellow in the childhood i know the world that how it is .