All I want for Christmas... AFC

>>Before you read further, this is a dark reverse harem R-18 novel.>Imagine dying. Not naturally or anything but because a male like you, and you just wanted to experience life. The first is so traumatic to you that it is vague, while the second.... ahh...that one you didn't have a body left.
In the third life, you somehow became a mother, have four husbands from the beginning, and later realised the world you are in you are labeled as a beast, and the other species; humans, elves, and fairies can summon you or your young at any time.
what would you do?
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>>Join Du-Gooder Xiala on her journey to experience life, raise her young, and bond with her mates.
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Side note: there should be 7-8 males at the end.
>>Dark fantasy
>>Blood gore and descriptive violence.
>>Sexual content.
PLEASE READ WITH CAUTION!!!