WHEN I SAW her jogging earlier, I thought of making her breakfast. I know she was going to rest in that old tire swing so instead of going for a jog myself, I ended up cooking in the kitchen. I was thinking it would help make up for being distant these last few months. It was torture not seeing her. . . not kissing her. . . not feeling her warmth. But I had to stay away for my sanity.
I knew how she felt for me a long time ago. But she was way too young for me and I didn't want to ruin her teenage years. Besides, wala pa naman s'yang boyfriend. But then she started going out for lunches and ice creams and it drove me out of my mind. I found myself listening to her chat with my sister, Colleen and I would breathe a sigh of relief knowing that no one has kissed her yet.
And truth be told, I was late for her debut because I honestly was scared to go. She's eighteen now -- an officially an adult. Who knows if she was going to introduce a secret boyfriend or something. I don't think I can take that. I ended up going anyway and it was perfect timing that a girl wanted to have a drink with me. I wasn't interested with her but it helped cover up my fear. I did feel a pinch though when I saw Faye's face -- and knowing I caused that sadness makes me want to punch myself in the gut.
She avoided me the whole night and even her smile didn't reach her eyes when she went to our table for a picture. Faye was between me and Colleen and our parents on the side. Then another picture was taken with us -- this time with her parents and my bestfriend, Ian.
I couldn't sleep that night and if my sister wasn't sharing a room with her, I would have knocked and talked to her. Pero parang dininig naman ng langit ang hiling ko at lumabas s'ya. I followed her to one of the cabanas and I remember cursing because it's past midnight and she decided to take a walk by herself. Paano na lang kung hindi ako gising at may nangyari sa kanya? Little did I know, we would end up making out at katiting na lang ang pagtitimpi ko para hindi s'ya angkinin. Hell, I was her first kiss. I thought her how.
But guess what, I froze while carrying the breakfast I made for her. Paglabas ko ay kausap na n'ya ang lalakeng kasing-edad n'ya at ang asaran nila ay biglang nauwi sa bagong pagkakaibigan. Yes, I heard it all. And when I found out, he is treating her for breakfast, dali-dali akong nagpunta sa loob at naligo. Forget the breakfast I made, I am not going to let her go out with that young boy.
And now that boy is here. "If you think you are going out with that punk, think again."
She ignored me and got out of the swing. "Hey, Asher. You're just right on time."
"I didn't want to be late. Gutom na rin ako," nakatawang sabi nito. Honestly, he looked like a good kid and that's what is stopping me from punching his pretty face. "Kuya mo?"
Bago pa nakahuma si Zoe, naakbayan ko na s'ya at hinapit sa gilid ko. "No, I am not her brother."
Pareho silang ngumanga sa sinabi ko. Zoe was the first to be come out from shock. She hissed at me. "What the fuck are you doing?"
"Swear one more time and I will be kissing you in front of him," banta ko sa kanya. It was half meant. Of course I won't be kissing her. . . here. But I don't like hearing her swear. Hindi bagay sa kanya. She paled but quickly put her guard up. That's my girl.
The boy looked uneasy but was not ready to back down at any time. "Do you still want to go for breakfast?" nagpalipat lipat ang tingin nito sa amin ni Zoe na matalim na nakatingin sa akin. If she was shooting real daggers, duguan na ako at nakahandusay sa bakanteng lote na ito.
I was hoping she would say no and spare this boy a heartache but Zoe was asking for it. "She is not coming with you."
"Yes, I am," matigas n'yang sabi sa akin.
"Unless she is with me," I said that with a smirk. Bago pa nakawala si Faye sa bisig ko ay nahigpitan ko an ang kapit sa kanya. I whispered to her. "If you think I will let you go out out with him looking like that on your own, think again."
"What's wrong with my clothes? I have always worn this and you never said anything until now. What's your problem?" inis na tanong n'ya sa akin. She is right. I never commented about the clothes she wears until now.
"Do you really want me to go into details? Well, let's see. How about I start with the lounge ch -- uhmp!"
Tinakpan n'ya ang bibig ko at pinandilatan ako ng mata. "Are you crazy?!"
Instead na mainis ako sa kanya, I did a reverse. S'ya ang aasarin ko. At the same time -- I would have a little fun myself. I missed her. I licked her palm and while I was doing it, I looked straight into her eyes and showed her how much she means to me.
Her mixed reactions told me she was caught off-guard and if this punk wasn't here, I would have pulled Faye closer to me and kissed her lips senselessly. But that has to wait, maybe after breakfast. Tahimik kaming naglakad palabas ng village at nagpunta sa bagong diner sa kanto. It wasn't here before but I haven't been home for a few months and a lot of things changed in this small town.
Including this punk who I think just recently moved in to our village.